Dil Sa Koi Kameena Nahi.....

...Wallah Ye Uljhan Badhne Lagi Hai..my my whatta song!! So very much meaningful n d soul of dis song is certainly Rahat Fateh Ali Khan saab :) As I was listening to
dis song early morning today I realised this has now become my mantra to explain every fickle turn that my mind takes. I also cant forget to mention that I also
believe I can relate to my caller tune too...Mann lafanga bada apne hi mann ki sune...my mann is so getting rusty with disuse that I can hear it screeching whenevr I try to think about anything more challenging than "Is it time for a walk?". "Should I buy a blue Tee or a white one?" "Is it the work?" "Should I go n get the groceries?" "Is it the house?" "Is it life?" "Is it love?".. Well well...my poor mann thinks... How does one fill a void one can't find? Should I have lived during the bubonic plague so that I'd have more substantial things to worry about?

Have you ever felt like there's so much going on in your head, even u cant begin to fathom where its starts and where it ends and where one thought begins and the
loops in to the next? Like everything is one endless meandering never-ending confusing stream of thoughts? Like you're constantly jittery and on edge. Walking on eggshells not knowing whats around the corner. Or like you're trying to runaway from something and yet you're in the same place, not moving. Like it feels like you've moved miles forward, and suddenly you realise you're just where you started, if not way behind. Like you're so bloody preoccupied 24/7, every waking minute of every hour, that you cant do anything straight. Like you're trying to understand something thats refusing to make itself known. Like you're trying so hard for things to work out, to be right, and everything that could go wrong, does??? Uffff see wat all my lafanga mann thinks about...geezzzz

Awww...as I am getting trapped in my own thoughts also comes a tug of war between dil n mann which I so very much dislike! I keep talking to a couple of my sweet friends in life who share their emotions, experiences about what love is all about for them or for their friends...oh ya ya I so very much love gossips....n damn I end up in a debate where I strongly feel true love is certainly rare....its just flux of emotions of attraction amongst the younger crowd these days..they are so very ok to move on with 'N'number of guys/gals in their lives....damn it..Is dis really love????

Well...I am gonna make jus one strong statement that I believe...shooo away if u dont agree....but this is wat wud define love for me....rather than d crap of sacrifice, or making love, or exchanging gifts, or writing letters...bla bla bla...blahhh!!!!!!! So here I go what I feel...For me its like Findin a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat... the guy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is and knows he's lucky to have you.... The one who turns to his friends n family and says, 'Yep!! She's the one!!" ;)

In the meantime..here's something dat stuck my mind of which I came across today: The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly, and the best way to keep love is to give it wings :)

Okay u folks gettin sarcastic?? but hey der dont u damn fuhget that dis is d simpler me n I love my simplest thoughts. Ah well..something highly uncanny started running, and feeling so mentally drained from this feeling of my mind running overtime. M exhausted in everyway. N damnnnn d nervewrecked feeling!!