Rich & Confused With Loneliness...???

I always thought I write well, at least I can write what’s in mind…and I know it all sounds foolish!! Maybe…not..!!!

Yet there’s so much in and around, I write to feel light and be off to another venture…I can’t move ‘coz I can’t write...I know I need to...the current state of mind that I am in is craving to get ears to hear me out..Present is restless to take over; while the past is not yet off. The noisy recession in my mind is filled. The marinated minds have reasons to comprehend it all and the softness and shatter of the heart has gone enough so far till the end that now no sound disturbs me, none penetrates.

Move on! Crys a night and tells me to wake up a judgment to move on; rather sulk a noon and drink in the night to surrender and move on yet again. Strongly have been feeling matters of the heart are just cocktail-party conversations...which just get crushed once the folks walk out dumping the leftovers....!!! All these emotions sometimes makes me think can I behave a human for a while? Can I un-wear the plastic shine of eyes and the fake joy I surrender to all around with my smile? I like crying when my heart feels heavy, can I?

This time the gloomy me attempts to portray self through a verse that my heart pleads.

I turn the inside out of myself...
...Sitting to re-iterate and brain dump my thoughts somewhere
...a stint to give my mind and eyes a sticky-note kind of reminder of what I want...
I am not unreasonable, nor adamant...
I am approximately correct in reaching a fact that I am craving...so much like all of us...
I will never follow trends in pursuit of happiness...
I am desire driven...yet me wonders M I really the Woman apt for this world???
There are things which are not meant to be, but they are...
I am an unknown, unidentified follower of somebody...but I am not crowd...
I have continued to live ‘coz my dreams are someone’s treasure in my eyes!
I feel loved and I love that feeling…I am someone’s unique creation on earth; I keep myself to me…lest the culture spoils me…
And hey hey hey Did I still hear you saying, that I need anybody…??

If I get starry eyed with you, as I talk...I am drifted in those thoughts yet again...thoughts of love which was no false...the essence of life so much so that I look into the empty sky ...until far somewhere...and back through the window on the...couch and cushion with ‘my wine’ and ‘your beer...’

and no blink...catch me smile...and no blink.......